i've been thinking a lot about changes lately.
how i react to them mostly.
when change comes at me do i react in...
sadness?
anger?
happiness?
fear?
confusion?
confidence?
there are changes that cause my heart to hurt and be heavy. there are changes that make me happy and want to dwell in that change. there are changes that cause me to retreat and hide. there are changes that make me say 'im not ready for this'. there are changes that i think...'this looks different than i thought'.
i like change for the most part.
i like changing my blog. i love the freshness of it.
i change my house around all the time. it makes me happy to repurpose and redecorate.
i like to change things up in our gals group to keep things fun, flexible and laid back.
i like to change things up at home so we can spend more time as a family.
but what about when the change is not my decision or a change that interrupts my comfort zone?
january is a time for new beginnings. everyone makes new years resolutions of what they want to change in the new year. our change was made for us. heath will not be coaching football for harding high school next year. the year ahead for the hinton family holds many changes. im not sure what at this point. but change is inevitable.
what we do with change...however...IS in our hands.
i have went thru all the emotions i've listed and probably some others...but what it boils down to today is this...
i will live as if there is no tomorrow.
i will embrace the people around me.
i will be a part of something bigger than me.
i will inspire others to be part of something beyond themselves.
no matter where we live or what we are doing.
im not really sure how i want to end this post.
i do know that my ministry is being real with others.
and on this blog the change that occured before christmas is a stepping stone to what's ahead for the hinton fam. and i just had to include it here before i could write or share anything else.
what change is before you? how are you reacting?
Thanks Andrea for asking this question, How are you reacting??
ReplyDeleteIt has really got me thinking about how I am REACTING right here, right now. Here it goes.. I thought all along that I had accepted the passing of my dad and all would be good. Come to only feel the real hurt and pain a year later. Like a door smacking me right in the face!! And now I sit and wonder why now, why such a strong feeling of sadness and anger and every other emotion that comes along with it. I guess I was more worried about how everyone else was coping at the time to truly take time for myself and my own grief. So thanks for getting me to think about this a little more on HOW I AM REACTING to this because I know how I am feeling it is not where I want to be... Love ya:)